Life has been rather stressful lately. I've withheld from blogging much because I don't want to just spew negativity. That doesn't benefit anyone. Nonetheless, negativity and an overall sour disposition has been with me for a while.
In an attempt to "turn that frown upside down" I'll share a few photos and other good things that have been happening as well. As the old song says, "accentuate the positive/ eliminate the negative/ latch on to the affirmative/ don't mess with Mr. In Between."
1) This little man is such a joy to greet in the mornings. He always wakes up so happy!
|Oh, you know. Just chatting with my monkey friend. :)|
3) He is growing up so fast! Sometimes I look at him and see a toddler instead of an infant. He had a Dr. appointment recently, and had a good report. He's made great progress in his growth and development! He's such an amazing little preemie man!
|Oh, the mischief waiting to happen!|
4) I've been working to finish up my pregnancy journal from when I was pregnant with Tennyson. I've really enjoyed getting to go back through all those pictures and posts. I set a goal to have it done by the time I start the next one which will be at 10 weeks (soon!).
I've also been working on another photo book to be a family yearbook. Instead of printing (or in my case, not printing and then losing the photos on the computer) photos and storing them, I've decided to create photo books for each year. The books take up much, much less space (hooray!) and are more pleasant to look through. I'm so excited to see it come together!
5) I've been focused on "Operation Clean Out and Get Organized." I feel that it is important (and possible!) to not necessarily need a bigger space, but to better utilize the space we already have. I have a "To Sell" list and a "To Purchase" list. Now that Tennyson is getting more mobile and we'll have another child soon, I'm feeling the necessity for cleaning out things that aren't absolutely essential and getting what remains highly organized. Fortunately, minimalism and organization are two of my favorite things! I worked on our clothing today, and feel quite accomplished to have gotten everything to fit nicely in our small closet.
Okay, so I am going to break into the negative side of life for just a moment. Contrary to that peppy song, sometimes you can't eliminate the negative. You have to confront it.
My sister went for her first ob appointment today and discovered that she had lost the baby. She had been trying to conceive for a while, and finally did but now must endure greater loss. My heart is breaking. It's also trembling in fear of facing the same situation. She was only one week behind me in her pregnancy. My first ob appointment is next week. David and I have celebrated this little life from the beginning, but now I find myself cautious. I don't want to be. I want to be fully accepting. These moments hit you hardest when you can relate. My heart is just so heavy for her and myself.
I'm reminded that there is no guarantee of conception and/or continuing to carry. Pregnancy and the child within are such incredible gifts. I don't take that for granted. For this reason, we've chosen to welcome the gift of children in our family. I don't fully understand the negative tone and question of "why" we would choose to have more children now. To me, conceiving and carrying a child is the ultimate display of beauty. I cherish it.
I pray I might get to see this beauty flourish. I also pray she might get another chance to do the same.